A WEBLOG & LIFEWORK
Powered by angst, ennui, anomie, and anhedonia.
And ADHD.
The late Terrence McKenna said:
“We all bring home our drawings to stick on refrigerators and things like that, but in the future we won't stick them on refrigerators, we will stick them in our website. And everything will go into our website. And by the time we're 25 or something, our website will be the size of the American Museum of Natural History. And you can wander through it. And as a gesture of intimacy you can invite someone else to wander through it.”
My website is primarily a gesture of intimacy, and I invite you to wander through it.
I have resorted to sharing “refrigerator drawings” because (1) I have many interests and I’m not willing to pursue only one at the expense of others; and (2) because I get more pleasure from craft and process than from entrepreneurial ventures.
In other words, while the things I make can be purchased, that is not why I make them. And that is why my website is a collection of refrigerator drawings rather than a Shopify store.
Writing
I began writing in 2012 after recovering from a ten-year addiction to cocaine and heroin. Since then I’ve written essays, profiles, letters, rants, memoir—virtually all forms of creative nonfiction—as well as one gear review.
Writing became a tool for exploring inner and outer worlds and a medium for representing both. While I recorded my own thoughts, I also tried to illuminate the lives of others through small sketches and long-form profiles.
Photography
I started making film photographs in the eighth grade, 1991. I have stuck with film photography despite modern advancements because photography is, in my opinion, primarily the practice of presence and patience. And digital cameras undermine that practice.
All photos on the website are scans of my film negatives, except those used to represent the bicycles and tobacco pipes I make and sell (see below). I make most of those photos with a digital camera.
Bicycles
Just about every American boy develops a relationship with a bicycle at some point in his life. My relationship started at the age of five but deepened significantly at the age of 37 after reading Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance, which set me to fixing and maintaining the bikes I rode.
In early 2018 I pulled a 1993 Trek 850 from a dumpster and determined to restore it. One thing led to another and I now have a 1,000-square-foot shop devoted largely to steel bicycle fabrication.
Tobacco Pipes
The first pipe I made was of brass, and I machined it in my tenth-grade shop class for smoking cannabis.
Today I don’t smoke cannabis and only occasionally smoke tobacco, but as with nearly all my interests, curiosity led to intense study led to practice.
I’ve written of my love for tobacco, and I try to make a few tobacco pipes a year, usually as gifts for friends, unless a stranger buys one first.